Don't know really, I guess because I was following her for so long, since her 1st webcam show and interacting with her for so many years. Her bubbly and sweet personality, I really admired her beyond just some object to jerk off to. The way she was murdered doesn't still irks me. It's not all about jerking off, I couldn't get off to her vids anymore even if I tried my hardest. Everybody is different tho, that's just me.